Beyond the ceiling

It is 10:00pm. So begins our all too often ritual of crying, screaming, pacing, bouncing, swaying, singing, rocking.... Nothing is pleasing this child, so I go to my fail-safe. The bathroom. I turn on the bath water and begin my patented bounce/sway motion. Mia begins to calm. I am holding her upright by my shoulder, the way she likes. She stops crying and leans back into my hand, her arms limp by her side. She stares at the ceiling. She is staring so intently. Her eyes don't move and for the first time in 45 mins, she is completely calm. What is she looking at? What is so interesting about the ceiling? Maybe it is the bright white color. Maybe it is the ugly popcorn. Or maybe, she is seeing something beyond the ceiling. Something that my eyes are to cynical, too worldly to see. Maybe she is seeing the angels that surround her. Maybe she is seeing her Jesus smiling down on her. Her blinks are getting longer and longer until she doesn't open her eyes again. Then she gives a sweet, half smile. As if to tell me and everyone else that I can't see, good night. With that smile all of my frustration, exhaustion, and self pity melts away. Lord, I pray that Mia will always have the innocence to see you. I pray that she will always be sensitive to your presence. I pray that she will be able to discern good spirits and that she will use all of your good gifts. Oh yeah, and I pray that she STAYS ASLEEP!

Thank heaven for best friends

What a difference a year makes!

I was thinking this weekend about what I was doing this time last year. I was in Dallas. I flew to Dallas for Jennie's baby shower. She was very pregnant. I was not even pregnant yet but was trying very hard to be! We had so much fun that weekend. We went shopping. We hung out and napped. We went to a Ranger's game and then after the game we watched Robert Earl Keen in the VIP section (nice to have friends with connections). I sat next to Kevin Millwood (Ranger pitcher)and even got my pic with him! I could have never imagined how different both of our lives would be in one year. I could have never imagined how consumed and in love we would be with our little girls! From now on, when we have weekends together, our girls will be playing too! I hope they will be best friends like we are. I don't know what I would have done without Jennie to talk to, vent to, brag to, cry with, and get advise from during this time. I am so thankful that God put her in my life. Love you, Jenn.

Me and Kevin Millwood

Jenn and me and the Ranger game

Isn't she cute!

Baby Wise?

We had a wonderful weekend and I had the BEST Mother's Day. Now that I am a mother- I love love love Mother's Day. It is just special. Daddy did good on my present! (pic below). Mia had her pcis made with her beautiful cousins and some of just her. She is too cute!

I read a book called Baby Wise. Anyone heard of it? It has some very good principals and we started Mia on a new schedule based on the book. It says to feed the baby but don't let them fall asleep right after eating. They have a wake time right after eating then it is nap time then repeat. She was happier the first day we did the schedule. I can already tell a big difference! I think maybe she wasn't getting enough sleep during the day and it was making her cranky. One thing that the book says to do (that I don't do yet) is to put the baby down to nap while still awake. This way they learn to fall asleep on their own. It says that it is normal for baby to cry for up to 20min before falling asleep. It says it will not hurt the baby to cry and in fact-babies need to cry some. I just can't do it! 20 min is a long time!I have heard that you shouldn't let a newborn "cry it out", but at what point are they not a newborn anymore? I know I ask alot of questions to the blogging public (and I really appreciate your input!) I just want to always be doing the best thing for Mia and for our family.

Did you let your babies cry?
For how long?

Now....pictures
Mia and her beautiful cousins. Britlee and Brooklyn

She spit up on her dress right before the pic. LOL

We just think she is so beautiful!

Mother's day present. The stone is Mia's birth stone

Mia's Kentucky Derby party outfit. Floppy hat and all!

Tagged

I got tagged by Sarah to write 7 things about me that no one knows and then tag 5 other people to do the same. Thanks Sarah!

1. I'm a cowgirl. Yes that is right, a cowgirl. Not by birth but by marriage. I fell for a very hot rodeo cowboy! We have a beautiful home on 2 acres (thank goodness for riding lawn mowers). We have a horse. I ride him and help feed him. I have even been know to show up at work with hay in my hair. oops!

2. I LOVE my cat. Probably too much. She was abandon as a kitten and was the runt so she was very small (still is). I had to bottle feed her for 3 weeks. She thinks I am her mommy and I am! She lays on me like a baby. It is so sweet. I have enough love in my heart for both my babies.

3.I'm not really that "wife-y". I try to be. I would love to keep a perfect home and cook big meals. I will go through spells where I figure out what I'm going to cook all week and go to the store to buy all the stuff. But most of the time Jaden and I end up standing in the kitchen about 6:30pm staring into the fridge trying to figure out what I can cook. Or, Jaden has to run to the store in the middle of me cooking because I am missing a key ingredient (which is not easy when you live in the country). Does anyone else have this problem?

4.I love to pick at things. Zits, hair, whatever! Gross I know! I long for Jaden to get a Zit or an ingrown hair so I can pick at it. Mia has a couple little white heads on her face and I have to hold myself back!

This is hard!

5. I watch some really embarrassing shows. Jaden works a month of days and a month of evenings. So, when he is on evenings (esp. before Mia) I got really board. I'm hooked on things like "The Hills" (OMG I can't believe Heidi married Spencer), "Real Housewives of New York/OC/Atlanta", Real World/Road Rules Challenges, "Dancing with the Stars", American Idol. The list goes on. Get a life? I know.

6. I like opposites. I just recently figured this out. My husband and I are opposites. He is very quiet (at least in a crowd) and I am, well....not. My best friend (Jenny) is also very quiet and reserved. What is funny is that she and Jaden are alot alike and me and Jordan (her hubby) are alot alike! Funny huh.

7. I have broken 2 bones in my body. A very small one, my nose. And the biggest one, my femur. I broke my femur when I was 7. My brother dared me to get on my grandmother's roof. I never back down from a dare. I had 2 surgeries. I was in traction for 6 weeks and a full body cast (arm pits to toes) for 3 months. The doctor said it was a miracle that I didn't walk with a limp!

OK, now I tag- Jordan, Melissa, Mandy, Elizabeth, Ashley B

Cuddle bug

We love miss Mia so much that I think we have created a monster. We read that kids should be able to fall asleep on their own and "self soothe". Mia does not do this. She does not fall asleep or stay asleep unless she is being cuddled. She is a cuddle bug! (which, by the way, I love. But, we need to do what is in her best interest. So, this week we are working on self soothing. It is not easy for mommy.

Mia also has eye infections. It was just in one eye and we thought it was a clogged tear duct but then it spread to the other eye. So we are not sure. We are putting antibiotic ointment on them. They were pretty goopy for a couple of days. It didn't seem to bother Mia but it bothered us!

Another note: I got a baby K tan. It is a baby holder that has lots of different positions you can hold your baby in. I LOVE it! It is very handy.

More pics (of course)!
Mia-Daddy cuddle/nap time

I love this headband

I can whistle! :)

Bath time

Happy Easter

Thanks to everyone for your comments. It helps so much to see what other people have done with their kids. I just want to make things as easy on us and her as possible. I will take ANY suggestions, ANY time, from ANY one!

We were not going to go to Easter dinner because Mia is only 3 weeks old, but Jaden had an uncle in town who probably won't get another chance to see her for at least 6 months. So, we went. I cried on the way there. I was so nervous. We got there and there were a TON of people! I was watching all of these kids run around with runny noses. At one point, Jaden's cousin said I wasn't being myself and I ran out of the living room crying! We all laughed about it later. I always thought I would be a really easy going mom. I hope I will get better! I feel like a mother bear who could rip anyone apart that comes near my baby! Overall though, we had a really good Easter. How amazing that God gave his son and let him go through the cross for US! I can't imagine. Thank you Lord.

Another Dr's appointment and lots of questions

Mia had her 2nd Dr's appointment yesterday. She has grown an inch and weighs 9 lbs now! She is doing so great. The Dr ask me how we were sleeping, my response was-"umm, ok". As of now, Mia sleeps in her swing next to our bed. She is not a big crier (more of a grunter) so when she starts to wake up and grunt, I feed her. Sometime in the middle of the night, she usually ends up in bed cuddling with me the rest of the night. The Dr told me to wait to feed her until she really starts to cry. She said to feed her, burp her and put her back down. No talking, cuddling, or playing. She said this will help her start to sleep through the night. I hate it. I cried more than she did last night. I am afraid I am going to teach her that she needs to cry to get things. She is such a good baby and I don't want to change that.

Any advise from any moms would be greatly appriciated.
Did you let your baby cry before you fed them?
Did they sleep in your room or in your bed? If so, for how long?
When did they get on a regular nighttime schedule?
Did you swaddle them at night?
Please Help!